So last night (actually very early this morning) I had a disturbing dream! I know! Right after posting about how I don't have them anymore.
This was truly disturbing too. I was visiting my parents. They had moved to some retirement community (the only way my mom would ever do this in real life is if she was already dead), and they had custody of Emma. Rob did not appear in this dream --apparently I was a single parent and I'd just abandoned Emma to my parents when I moved to some other town for a job opportunity.
This retirement community was very open-plan, and totally unfurnished. I mean, they had to buy their own toilet. Yeah. And for some reason they had purchased a very short wooden one. And my parents are tall with bad knees! And weirdly, my mom was very zen about it all, which in general is not a word anyone would use to describe my mom.
The overpowering feeling of the dream was one of horror at myself for abandoning Emma to her rather eccentric grandparents. How could I have done this?!
Anyway, I know nothing about what dreams mean, but lately Emma has not needed to snuggle before going to bed. I'm always in bed before her these days, and she would come in and lie down beside me and we'd snuggle and chat --some days it was real work to get her to leave and go to her bed. Suddenly within the last week, she just comes in, gives me a kiss and says goodnight, and leaves.
I think I'm feeling abandoned. Or else I'm feeling guilty that it's a relief not to have to battle to get her to bed anymore. :-)